basketbball.
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
hrm.. good for a change right? decided to start using a different colour to post.. =) i like this colour. it's nice and fresh. x)
whaaa bball competitions are in like a month.. die arhh. and can you believe that we dont know who's in the team yet? the pressure.. the stress.. all quite distracting.. it's a bit too much stress to be called HEALTHY stress la, that's all. oh well. the only people who are confirmed are the capt and vice capt, so..yup.. you know i just realised that there are so many things that the bballers are competing against each other for.. it's a good thing that the captain problem is over.. but now there's all this confusion and gossipping about who's going to get into the team. and as for those people who arent talked about as qualifiers..instead theyre DEBATED on-whether they'll be in the first five. i mean.. hai. it's better to just let nature take its course right? no need for all the backstabbing.. all this crap only breaks up our team. hrm.. it's fine now, but just wait and see.. problems will appear. that's all.
haha me and fush stayed back again after sch to practise bball.. then when everyone else went home we were still talking.. we talked about a lot of things la.. it's good to catch up. =) i agree with fush.. the fact that both of us would have made IT well together man.. sigh. if only time didnt pass by so fast- so many things i wish i could change have escaped beyond my reach. i now realise that i wont have THAT CHANCE ever again. even in sec 4. sian ah.. why does life have to end this way? argghh. too bad then.
wheeheeheehee hols are coming.. =) but because of *something, i'm super determined to study my ass off. i dont care if i ever change her mind; it made me realise that grades can spoil EVERYTHING. no matter how hard you tried or pushed yourself, no matter how much effort and determination you put into training and correcting your bad habits, no matter how much you practised or improved, doesnt matter whether you had WHAT IT TAKES, with skills, abilities, confidence.. i THOUGHT i had it all. for TWO WHOLE MISERABLE YEARS i thought i had it coming. under control.. WELL within my reach. i was even PREPARED for it by those who were the decision makers. the ones who spurred me on. but when one problem is solved, another arises. i overcame my confidence. not long ago in fact, but i NEVER thought about grades.
all of a sudden, reality hit me hard in the face- the excruciating pain of failure made me realise my mistake.
but i guess it was just too late.
i made the shot at
9:36 PM
.desired.